Here I stand

Feeling as if the world has conquered me
Here I stand.
Looking around I see no one,
No one besides myself that is.

Never mistaking myself for no one.
I turn inward to myself.
The only friend I ever needed,
The only person I should have ever trusted.

When no ones around I can't break down.
This is the moment in which I must stand tall
Because there all sitting around waiting to see me fall.

Here I stand,
Lost and confused.
Challenged by the obstacles of life.
I look for someone dear to me to confined in,
and I realize If the world has you down its really only up to me
To pull myself back up.

Rely not on others for the happiness in which I can provide for myself.
Today is my day as any other day is mine as well.
I deserve to be happy each day
My happiness ultimately falls all on me.

I shall do for me, as I begin to see that no one will ever care as much as I do for me.
My life, my happiness, my choices & my decisions,
Frame the woman I am to the woman I so badly want to be.

Me

No one to talk to
So I talk to myself;
Label me crazy.
Call me what you want.

You know nothing of me;
Furthermore you know only what I allow you to know
So never should you ever feel so strongly to ever declare knowing me.

Waking up and realizing that reality is real.
Time is not of my essence, but in essence of itself.
No one but me, not even time will wait on me.

Feels so lonely being alone.
Trapped within the walls of my mind
I seek the gateway out within myself.

Only I can set us free.
Nothing but a prisoner within me;
I tend to see myself as an evil doer.
Doing nothing but ruining myself.

I seek the light, gain the light
To slowly realize that there's darkest within every night
That comes..
Tonight & every night that follows after.

The power I seek is already within me,
The potential I aspire has already reached me.
The fear of anything shall never conquer me
Knowing is only half of it.

I pray that every move I make from here on out
Leads me closer to the woman I want to be.
Keeping love in my heart & remaining judgmental free
I pray that one day the world sees me for the woman I know
I can someday be.