Why

I don't wanna be bothered by anyone right now
I've had the worst day this year & it's not even 4pm yet.


Seems to me as my biggest flaw is me,
Why am I such a screw up;
I swear I don't understand why today happened like this;

More than one incident leads me to believe that today occurred in this foul manner
For a reason,
My mind told me not to & I did it anyway
I blame my anger,
I blame myself

I don't know why things happen the way they do
Only you do.
I pray for patience
understanding & self control.

I feel so helpless
Like the devil is always after me,
I know there's a lot of people I need to cut loose
This process hurts more than It should.

Still trying to find the positive in this ;
.....I feel horrible.